accept yer fate

these damn kids.

srsly.

the kids i work with and school with have done a good job of point­ing out my phys­i­cal aging. haha, yes, belly. haha, yes, white hairs.

i guess all of these years of “feel­ing” old and hav­ing friends older than me has finally come back to bite me in the ass.

i think i can han­dle it, but i turn 30 next year, and i’ve never thought this much about aging before. never thought about it, period. meh.

i might as well accept my fate. i will turn into my grand­fa­ther even­tu­ally. by all rights, he’s a totally cool bloke. and at least there is no bald­ness any­where to be found in either side of my family.

next up in the micah-becomes-jack-beck process? dou­ble chin. shit, wait, i know that’s already begun. :P

(ps — coin­ci­den­tal on the song, but i was lis­ten­ing to the album, and it’s a great album and song, so maybe i lis­tened to it more than once…)

i’ve often thought there should be beauty contests for the insides of bodies

no dead ringers? wtf?


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there’s no i in meme

[A is for age of first kiss:] 15. i think.

[B is for booze of choice:] port. man, i am in love with port.

[C is for career:] print­ing. well, before and after, and now it’s the-study-of.

[D is for your dad’s name:] mark

[E is for essen­tial items to bring to a party:] escape plan

[F is for favorite song at the moment:] lisa ger­rard “violina”

[G is for favorite game:] jaunty wordplay

[H is for home­town:] phys­i­cal, mohn­ton pa; men­tal, berlin deutschland

[I is for instru­ments you play:] bass, tables, human body, com­puter noisemakery

[J is for jam or jelly you like:] what? not marmalade?

[K is for kids?] the only kind that ever will be have fur and four legs.

[L is for last kiss?] no, not yet, i’m not nearly fin­ished with that.

[M is for mom’s name:] janet

[N is for name of your crush:] well, i had a 15-minute one on some guy i saw on fri­day night who looked like alan cumming…

[O is for overnight hos­pi­tal stays:] none…that i know of.

[P is for pho­bias:] money!

[Q is for quotes you like:] “if the truth can be told so as to be under­stood, it will be believed.” ter­ence mckenna

[R is for rela­tion­ship that lasted the longest:] 28 months with yoli…

[S is for sex­ual pref­er­ence:] some­one who keeps their sense of humour in bed.

[T is for time you wake up:] sleep o’clock. well, this week any­way, and then classes start again next week.

[U is for under­wear:] none currently.

[V is for veg­etable you love:] aspara­gus, egg­plant, arti­chokes, roasted red pep­pers, shallots…

[W is for worst habit:] not using my time effectively.

[X is for x-rays you’ve had:] lots on my head, elbow, knee.

[Y is for yummy food you make:] thai good.

[Z is for zodiac sign:] tau­rus (SO obvious)

dead people, almost-dead people, and dreams

three items: the first for­got­ten to post, the sec­ond for­got­ten to post, the third needed to post.

i) i for­got to post about the national trans­gen­der day of remem­brance on tues­day. sorry. here is more info.

ii) most of you know of my love for hockey, specif­i­cally the detroit red wings. two years ago yes­ter­day, ris­ing young star jiri fis­cher almost died on the ice from a heart attack. here is how jiri is doing today.

iii) i had a dream last night, obvi­ously inspired by cur­rent life con­di­tions, but tons of fun.

i was at a tech­ni­cal col­lege some years in the future (say 30) but i am the age i am now (say 30). i was a trans­fer to school, because i didn’t know any­body or any of the local places or any of the local doings. i worked on cam­pus, in some type of underwater-exploration-technology lab. i worked with a girl who was about my age and 8 months’ preg­nant or so. turns out this girl was the leader of some guerrilla/revolutionary group whose ethos was, for lack of a bet­ter word, techno-gaian. her lead­er­ship of this group was kind of an open secret, but nobody could seem to prove it and take her to the proper author­i­ties. before i knew what she was involved with, i had become smit­ten with her, and, if i may say so, she appeared to feel the same about me. in fact, as it became clear that the day was approach­ing for her to “meet her des­tiny”, she stated that she actu­ally wanted to come back from the activ­i­ties of this night, for me.

and, of course, i woke up just as that night was get­ting underway.

but i think it was one of those dreams where i am in a film, or some­thing like that. first of all, i worked with owen wil­son (who was gay and a top in my dream, btw). i also met alan alda, who was an older gen­tle­man who hung around the school and i felt was the key to find­ing out what was up with this girl (whose name i for­get but began with an A and was not a short name like anna or amy). i impressed him with my abil­ity to jump over rivers (it was a dream, eh).

home, with the family, le sigh

so, i’m home for thanks­giv­ing. when did my fam­ily get so loud? ok, they’ve always been this way, right…but when did i get so sen­si­tive? sheesh. i have a headache that just fades in and out.

o, obama

right, so i knew i was gonna vote for obama any­way. but then i read this arti­cle…and wow. i don’t give a shit if this seems like pan­der­ing. a can­di­date who lis­tens? and responds? on an issue that is pretty polar­iz­ing for those with an inter­est? fuuuuuck.

my cousin asked me a cou­ple weeks ago if i wanted to go to NH with him and vol­un­teer for obama. this has pushed me towards “yes” (even though, iron­i­cally enough, it means doing stuff with people).

podcast 067

episode 67
down among the heretics, the losers, and the saints

tracey thorn “grand canyon (ada vocal mix)” grand canyon
bola “pae paoe” fyuti edit fyuti
seabound “soul diver” beyond flat­line
wolf­sheim “it’s hurt­ing for the first time” spec­ta­tors
bergheim 34 “oscil­la­tions” how to sell out when no one is buy­ing
nat­acha atlas “shubra” ayesht­eni
mas­sive attack “group four” mez­za­nine
carl craig “good­bye world” more songs about food and rev­o­lu­tion­ary art
arovane “theme” tides
ein­stürzende neubauten “ich warte” alles wieder offen
neil young “gui­tar solo 1″ dead man
loren maz­za­cane con­nors “evening 1″ por­trait of a soul
love spi­rals down­wards “sidhe” ardor
cur­rent 93 “moon­light, you will say” of ruine or some blaz­ing starre
dead can dance “the car­ni­val is over” into the labyrinth

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beat it, intelligence

i was con­coct­ing a rather bril­liant idea for a post at work today while i was clean­ing out an ink waste con­tainer. waste ink, by the way, has the con­sis­tency of pud­ding and the best way to clean it out is to scoop it out by hand. stick­ing your hand in that is a tex­ture both sen­sual and ooky at the same time.

uh, any­ways here i am fin­ish­ing up scoop­ing out ink and i take off my gloves and notice that i’ve some­how torn a hole in the index fin­ger and enough ink leaked in to cover my fin­ger in a solid layer of black. only my index fin­ger. the first thing to cross my mind upon sight of my hand? “jesus, it looks like i’ve been fin­ger­ing a squid.”

and this cleared out what­ever great post idea i had…still.

excuse me, i seem to have the plague

ari­zona man dies of the plague

tom stoppard, czech rock, and me

(i have a thing for post titles like that, don’t i?)

this arti­cle on slate has an inter­est­ing begin­ning, inspired by the new play by tom stop­pard. i don’t agree with the full con­cept of the piece (amer­i­can cul­tural exports can make those less-than-enamored with us like us again), but i liked what it said about stoppard’s new play. maybe i should just find an arti­cle on the play and post a link to that, eh? ah, here we go. much better.

so, any­ways, read­ing about this made me wish i could find that lp of this czech rock band from the ’60’s i found at the leg­endary jerry’s in pitts­burgh ten years ago. what was their name…prazsky vyber? google says…looks like them. any­ways, i do have a cd by už jsme doma, so that’s kinda close…

but, you know, that will have to wait, as i’m lis­ten­ing to cur­rent 93’s inmost­light tril­ogy. drink­ing port. at 2am. which actu­ally sounds both more and less ok than you’d think.

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